2013
A
Spoken Word
Frances
Stevenson
2013 was interesting. A mixed bag. I
escaped a depression I had been fighting for a while. Quit a job I hated for a
year and a half and found love and acceptance in a class of two year olds. Made
less money. Got lost in my own head and realized I needed to make a change, got
started on the path to self-acceptance. Met a boy, met a less boyish boy who I
had known forever, did nothing with either boy. Felt completely alone, fell
back into depression and made a vow to stop alienating self. Bought a lot of
things I didn’t need. Started working out. Ate more vegetables. Lost some
weight. Gained some weight. Lied, a lot.
Drank more water. Got overly upset at a ripped pair of jeans. Bought new jeans.
Discovered the incredible power of fairy lights and alcohol. Took more
medications. Saw more doctors. Felt sicker, felt healthier. Started flossing,
stopped flossing. Enjoyed learning. Enjoyed school. Stopping enjoying school.
Met a bully. Tried to ignore bully. Felt smart. Felt stupid at the hands of
“friends”. Stopped letting other people define me. Failed. Let my nerdy freak
flag fly. Bought A LOT of shoes. Felt bad about throwing things away. Broke
things. Was terrible human being. Hated other human beings. Cried. Let a
beautiful and cold Sunday pass unencumbered by the outside world. Healed. Drank
equal amounts of coffee and tea. Started eating fish again. Tried to stop
eating dairy, failed, ate in moderation.
Wrote. Was awkward. Was awkward as hell. Talked to dad more. Felt apart
of family, felt nothing like family. Read a lot of books, watched slightly more
television. Joined the growing world of
the internet generation, felt less alone. Enjoyed no responsibilities. Waited
for 2014.